Monday, February 20, 2012
Mumblings from the bed of a sick man who can't sleep
really There's an uneasiness inside me. I know I need to be strong, that I need to ignore this and overcome this and that only God can help me through this.
I'm desperate, and after some prayer, I go on gchat and ask a few people online at this odd hour to pray for me because I'd love to be sleeping right about now and be oblivious to all my pain. They pray for me and I just feel more peace, but am I really better? No.
I can't sleep. My body is telling me things are wrong and my practice of trying mind over body is failing. I'm scared again. Can I take this repeated abuse?
I know the answer and it's yes. But man it's hard.
I need to find peace, so I turn on my rarely used iPod and listen to praise music. Wow I haven't heard these in so long. It brings me back to when I first met Christ. So powerful and so much rest in His arms.
Rest in His arms. That is what I seek. Rest.
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John 16:20-30
ReplyDelete20 Very truly I tell you, you will weep and mourn while the world rejoices. You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy. 21 A woman giving birth to a child has pain because her time has come; but when her baby is born she forgets the anguish because of her joy that a child is born into the world. 22 So with you: Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy. 23 In that day you will no longer ask me anything. Very truly I tell you, my Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. 24 Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete.
Stripped down, you have the opportunity to see the blessings you did not see before and how much strength you have from dependence on Christ.
ReplyDeleteMuch respect man. Aja Aja!!!!